So today I was going through my pictures to delete some and make room in my phone and I found this picture…On this day back in December I thought me and Jessica were having our annual trip to the casino a couple of nights before Christmas in St. Louis, but little did I know she had a surprise for me when I came out of the gas station!! That night i sat outside in 10 degree weather all by myself and was just thinking I was the happiest and luckiest man on earth.. Jessica and myself were so so excited that it was hard not to tell her family for Christmas, but we just had found out and wanted to keep it to ourselves for until after the first doctor visit at least! After the first doctor visit I knew it was real and I was going to be a dad.. We waited a little longer and finally found the right time to tell the family!! Shortly after breaking the news to our family and friends we had the unthinkable happen.. I still wonder to this day what you would have been and if you would have acted like me… Well the whole thing made me realize just how special and wonderful having a baby is!!! Now we are stronger than we ever was before and I know the good man above has his plan for us and I can’t wait to see what that plan is!! I love you babe!!! You and the kids are the best thing that ever happened to me!!!