Today I put on my best pants, my favourite shirt, I dress real nice. I fill my lungs withoxygen and I feel my heart. I make fire and prepare I like coffee with my oxygen shirt over it, praying over it with gratitude for the strength and inspiration it gives me. Today is a special day. Today is a special kind of ceremon It is special, for I am alive Today I choose to stop fighting for my life as my mind and my nervous system has been telling me for months. Today, I am alive, this mind can calm as my heart leads the way. This desire to push on, can surrender to trust. This fear of survival can let go Today I am alive, I am healthy and that is enough I have done enough, worked enough, developed and promoted enough, rite of passaged and processed enough .
I like coffee with my oxygen shirt, tank top and youth tee
I like coffee with my oxygen shirt, hoodie and sweater
It’s gloomy and gray with wind and rain. My favorite I like coffee with my oxygen shirt cup sprung a leak (cracked) and dripped on my white shirt. A rough start doesn’t mean I have to have a bad day, Life is what we make it. I choose to have a good day. You know what I wanted? Superhuman strength. Each morning that I wake I try to lift my bed with one hand which is disappointing because I can’t and that went on for weeks. Until disappointment acted like acid and slowly eroding my hope of having superhuman strength.
So I’ve been on Kauai now for about 9 months. When I first got here I was honestly pushing about 265-275 pounds. By grounding myself with the island herself I achieved courage and faith that I haven’t at the time felt before. Being around all the green nature filling me with oxygen to stay motivated. A year ago all I was good at was mooching off of innocent people who deserved higher respect than I was handing out. Never waking up before noon could not hold a job, let alone could I get one. But being here for this long things have changed. I get up at 7 to 8 almost every morning for my I like coffee with my oxygen shirt(Black of course, no need to shove sugar in your mouth right when you wake up). I then strip the shirt off (if there is one anyway), I slip off my slippers (also if they are on in the first place) to ground myself.